My First “Awakening”
I underwent my first “spiritual awakening” in March 2020. It happened during one of the lowest points of my life. Coronavirus was barreling down on the city. What was once my prized Tribeca studio apartment suddenly felt like a prison. Normally not much of a drinker, I found myself guzzling wine and binge watching Love is Blind to keep from losing my mind from stress. In a last ditch effort to preserve my sanity, I decided to ride out what was supposed to be a few weeks of quarantine in British Columbia with family. My stress reached a fevered pitch as I was packing: there were reports that Canada was planning on closing its borders to non-residents at any moment.
Stranger Things
In the midst of all this, weird things started happened. When I unplugged my juicer before I left NYC, a whitish-blue ball of electricity briefly appeared in front of the electrical socket. I started having vivid dreams. Safely at my cousin’s house but still incredibly stressed, I started to see what appeared to be shadowy figures walking across my peripheral vision at night. This last phenomenon was familiar. I remembered having a similar feeling when I was a small child.
It’s hard to pinpoint an exact moment that I knew I was undergoing a spiritual awakening. Like many people, I downloaded TikTok during the pandemic. I was immediately inundated with a flood of uncannily accurate videos, many of which told me that I was a “starseed” sent to Earth to help make the world a better place and clue humanity into their own inner divinity. The true “ah-ha” moment was when I joined a Zoom meditation during the pandemic. I could actually feel the energetic presence of the people on the call. I may not have been totally on board with the idea that I was a real-life Sailor Moon sent to heal the Earth with good vibes. But I definitely knew that something important had happened.
What Is A Spiritual Awakening?
The first definition that pops up on Google is:
“Spiritual awakening is a term given to describe a subjective experience in which an individual’s ego transcends their ordinary, finite sense of self to encompass a wider, infinite sense of truth or reality.
Cite: Fronteirs in Psychology Consciousness Research
A spiritual awakening is a personal, subjective experience. It’s going to look and feel different for everyone. It is more so a shift in perspective than a radical re-alignment. I still deal with the same issues I did pre-awakening. But I have a better sense of who I am (an energetic being in a cool, high-tech flesh suit) and what I’d like to experience during this lifetime.
Even as I write this, I can’t help but wonder if what I experienced was just a series of weird coincidences. Or maybe the stress of the pandemic really did cause me to lose a few marbles lol. While some of the more paranormal things like the bursts of electricity have stopped, I am left with a deeper understanding of “superpowers” I’ve always had but didn’t fully understand, like the power of my intuition.
What to Expect
If you are going through a shift like this for the first time, it is undoubtedly going to feel weird. Especially if you hadn’t really spent a lot of time pondering existential questions before (like I hadn’t). You may feel disconnected from things and people that you had placed a great deal of importance on. My advice would be to try to ride it out as gracefully as possible. Spending time in nature helps. Your life may end up looking quite different than it did before. Ultimately, this is a positive growth process. Enjoy the ride!
Have you undergone a spiritual awakening? Let me know in the comments!
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